Saturday 31 December 2011




Photo by me, model Mellody.

I just wanted to say Merry Christmas even though its already gone & Happy New Year.

Wednesday 21 December 2011




It's the second time I accidentally unplugged my earphones from the laptop with my elbow. WTH, I'm here lying in my bed staring at the windows and thinking. Thinking is all I do once I can't get asleep. So I have been thinking about how I wish it was summer and I could be riding a beautiful vintage bicycle wearing sailors shirt,or running in a field full of daisies, and a song would be playing while I was running. Like in the movies, it adds beauty and gives great sensation. It's like when you listen to your earphones, but the difference is that only you'd be thinking life is beautiful, people around might even get annoyed of the buzzing from the earphones, or maybe try to hear to which song your are listening to (I do that very often). Most of the time it sounds like electronic music then I wonder if everybody only listen to electro songs. I like to create a mood, for instance when its cloudy and grey and raining I put on some depressing soul songs. When it's sunny I go for 50s songs and when I don't like people I listen to The Beer by Kimya Dawson, don't ask me why. The other day I was in the bus, and this guy standing next to me with his headphones on, kept staring at me - I guess he was flirting. I rapidly looked at him them I turned my face towards the window and jumped to the next track on my iPod which was These Days by Nico but then I decided to press pause and try to listen to the sound coming from his headphones, it was hard to define but then the sentence 'because I got high la da da da da da da da da' sounded clearly. Then I sipped my coffee and pressed play again.

Tuesday 20 December 2011






When I feel like taking pictures the sunlight vanishes, it is been like that during the past few weeks, these are some pictures I managed to take before the monochrome sky ruined my intention of photographing. Besides cloudy days, the cold is unbearable but fortunately I have purchased a nice second hand faux coat and comfy gray sweater. But I still feel cold and will always feel (when outside, in winter)

Thursday 15 December 2011














Today I got up late, listening to voices from the kitchen. I watched TV and chatted with my parents. Then I dressed up and went to a get together. I had fun. Although I don't think I find things fun or funny anymore. The party was okay though. But there were kids and they wanted to play downstairs in the garden. Then a woman gently asked me if I could a watch the kids for a second. I wanted to say no but I said yes. The kids were running and asking me to play with them. I did and helped them climb trees. I am not that into kids. But then one of the kids called me Miss and I felt old, like I could be their teacher or something, I don't know, but the kids were nice. Some of them. Overall it was a good day at least I ate a nice apple pie and carrot cake. Now I plan to take care of my unfinished work .

Monday 12 December 2011







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I need a good night of sleep and coffee with cream for when I wake up.